Who's Counting?

During the first few years of a child's life, you spend a LOT of time visiting with their pediatrician. Even completely healthy babies get seen frequently for check-ups, vaccinations, and sick visits (even babies who stay home - have to build that immune system!). You become even closer to your pediatrician if your child has any kind of a medical issue whatsoever.

During each of these visits, as all parents can tell you, the baby is weighed and their length and head circumference is measured. These go on a chart as little dots and you have a brand new thing to stress about. Is my child's weight/height/head circumference normal? Is it too high? Too low? You leave the office in proud possession of their latest percentiles. Percentiles are rarely anything to be concerned about. If your child is in the third percentile, it just means that 97% of babies are bigger than him or her at this specific moment in time. It only becomes concerning when a baby doesn't follow their "curve." Emily, as I'm sure you can guess, tracks very low in her percentiles because she's a tiny little peanut. She is, however, on the full term growth charts as opposed to the preemie chart even though she was technically a preemie, so that's a tidbit to be excited about.

Nicholas tracks along his charts fairly well, with one exception. I'm sure you already know the exception is his head circumference. He was born with a head circumference of 46 cm. The "average" head circumference for a newborn is 36 cm, so you can see just how large his head was when he was born. He went as high as 47 cm while in the NICU, but some of that can be attributed to swelling after surgery along with human error (the nurses don't always place the tape measure in the exact same spot). Nicholas has always had a large head for his age and he's always been so far off the chart that it would be absurd to assign a percentile to his size. He's in the 175th percentile for age??? It's meaningless.

Obviously, unless the circumference shifted dramatically larger, his pediatrician was aware of his head circumference and was not overly concerned. The thought has always been that at some point, his body would catch up with his head and he'd start following along his growth curve.

Recently, he was seen for his 15 month (15 month????) check-up. He has recently made some significant leaps forward in his progress and we were excited to talk to his pediatrician about it. We've started adding real food to his formula diet. We're currently using fruit and vegetable purees and adding them to his formula and feeding it through his g-tube. We're still thinking that he'll eat by mouth one day (we don't know what day, but one day), and we'd like his body to be used to "real" food when it happens. His head size has also gotten smaller as I mentioned in a recent blog post. He's sitting up far more frequently and has started rolling over onto his belly and trying to push himself up into a crawling position.

While at the check-up, the standard measurements were completed. He's staying right on his growth curve for height and weight. And for the first time in his life, he is on the chart in head circumference. His body has finally started catching up with his head size. He's in the 97th percentile, true, but he's on the chart. It was really cool to finally see that dot fall in line with other babies his age. And it happened far sooner than we thought it would - we'd been told previously it would probably happen around age 2 or 3. Clearly this kid is an overachiever.

Arrrr, Matey

Recently, we had noticed that Nicholas's left eye was starting to turn inward. It was new.

At his 15 month check up, Mike asked Nicholas's pediatrician his thoughts and the pediatrician suggested we take Nicholas in to see an ophthalmologist for their opinion. Nicholas had previously been to this ophthalmologist when we noticed that his pupils were two different sizes. This doctor specializes in working with children with neurological disorders and eye issues. He's the one who determined that Nicholas's pupils were just a variation of normal.

Mike was able to get in very quickly (the next day) to the doctor who ran a multitude of tests. He determined it wasn't a palsy of any of the nerves in the eye and when he checked the pressures inside Nicholas's eyes they were exactly the same as last time. The doctor explained that this is actually quite a common problem with kids with things out of the ordinary going on inside their brains. Since it is highly likely that Nicholas was born with some brain damage due to the size of his ventricles at birth, his brain has been very busy the past year re-routing pathways. As the ophthalmologist explained it to Mike, he thinks a new superhighway has been built near Nicholas's left eye and the pathway to his left eye has become a two lane road. As with cars, the likelihood that a significant amount of communication will be headed down a two lane road when a superhighway is near is slim to none, Basically, when Nicholas's brain re-built some of his pathways, they messed up the pathway to his left eye.

This isn't something that is overwhelmingly worrying at this point. Because he's still so young and his brain is still so dynamic, there are ways to fix it. But we need to fix it sooner than later, because what could eventually happen is that Nicholas's brain could decide the two lane road to his left eye receives so little traffic that it's not needed anymore. Then Nicholas could go blind in that eye. Nicholas and I had a talk before he left for his nose surgery on December 31st that we're trying to make 2016 a surgery free year, so I'm pretty sure this will work. He's wearing a patch on his right eye for three hours each day for the next six weeks and then we'll follow up with the ophthalmologist. Hopefully the additional requirements on the left eye will strengthen the muscles and beef up the pathway and everything will be resolved. If not, we could be looking at surgery to fix it. It's a minor surgery, but obviously we'd like to avoid that if possible.

Either way, he's about the cutest little pirate you'll ever see!

Success!

I remember getting the call. Mike was on the other line and he was so upset that his voice was shaking. Since he was just leaving a check up at the neurosurgeon's office, I instantly went on high alert.

"What's wrong?"
"The PA is refusing to prescribe a helmet for Nicholas."
"WHY?"
"He said he doesn't think enough fluid has left his brain. That there's not enough brain matter yet for a helmet to work."
"Turn around."

We had spoken to Nicholas's pediatrician. He had agreed that it was time for cranial band therapy. We had spoken to all of his therapists. They agreed it was time for cranial band therapy. Why would the neurosurgeon's PA disagree with everyone else? And what had he said that had reduced my normally even keeled husband to shake with anger and defeat? I told Mike that I was coming to the office and to wait there for me. He faltered - told me the appointment was over and it was probably too late - except that our next followup wasn't scheduled until after Nicholas was over a year old and by then it would be too late to start the therapy. I told Mike if I had to follow the PA or the neurosurgeon to their cars when their days were over I would sit and wait for them. I suspected that an upset mother is the last thing the physician wants in his waiting room full of patients, so we would be brought back pretty quickly.

I spoke to the receptionist and the office manager quickly came out to ask me why I needed to see the PA. I firmly told her that he was refusing to prescribe a helmet for my son and we needed to discuss his reasons. Not surprisingly, we were brought into a room fairly quickly and the PA walked in shortly thereafter. I asked him point blank why he felt that a helmet wasn't the answer for our son.

He gave reasons. Some of them were probably valid. I trust my son's neurosurgeon and his staff immensely. The neurosurgeon has literally been inside my son's brain, and the likelihood that he'll be there again before Nicholas ages out of pediatric neurosurgery is high. But they don't live our life. They get to go home and leave brain surgeries and other related issues behind them. They get to sit down to dinner and talk about things like school and the new HOA rules and what they're doing this weekend. So while the office is staffed with amazing people, their passion will never equal ours. It simply can't. I understand that. So while I have literally trusted them with my son's life, I was not going to sit by and let them make a decision lightly that had the potential to impact Nicholas's life forever.

His reasons included that there's little literature or research on hydrocephalus patients and cranial band therapy success. That it would likely be unsuccessful because the shunt was still working on the tedious job of draining his overfilled ventricles. That, sure, we would move the skull but liquid moves a lot easier than brain matter and so it would probably just move back. That he just didn't think it would work.

I looked this PA in the eye and asked him if it would hurt Nicholas. If it could hurt him. He said no, of course not. So I asked him why not just try? He said we could try when he's older and his ventricles are drained back to normal sizes. That he could have a cranial reconstruction surgery at that point. And, haha, he just happened to know a great neurosurgeon. We stared at him. I asked him why we shouldn't try something that didn't require surgery and that Nicholas would never remember and instead jump directly to a surgical procedure, further recovery time, and possibly something that would traumatize him as he's older.

Obviously you've all seen the pictures, so you know that we walked out of that office that day with a prescription in hand. That the next fight was with the insurance company to get coverage. That we won that battle too and that Nicholas's skull has been gradually been re-shaped by the helmet and a dedicated orthotist who shaves out pieces of the helmet and adds pads to help Nicholas's head become less flat and more symmetrical.

I previously posted that Nicholas was at 26 mm asymmetry when this journey started. That his was the worst case that the orthotist had ever seen. That the challenge of taking on a hydrocephalus patient was almost too overwhelming. And that it's working. The helmet is reshaping Nicholas's head to be less asymmetrical. While some of our goal was to fix his head for vanity reasons, the vast majority was that he was having developmental difficulties because of the head shape. He was having a hard time sitting up because one side of his head was heavier than the other. He was having trouble rolling over because he had a giant cone in the back impeding him. Last month's measurements showed Nicholas at 9 mm asymmetry.

Nicholas met with his orthotist today and measurements happened. Accounting for some human error, Nicholas's head now sits at 5-6 mm of asymmetry. A head is considered to be within "normal" ranges of asymmetry when it's under 5 mm. It worked. It worked exactly like we hoped it would. And without surgery. Without a traumatic procedure. Sure, he had to wear his helmet a little longer than the average therapy length of 3 months, but so what? He'll never remember that time. Clearly this was a fight worth fighting.