New Year, New Updates

I've been terrible about updating this blog, but I'll try to be better - especially with all the exciting things going on!

Nicholas is, and has been, very stable. (Knocking on wood right now!). We've had one hospital trip recently and it had nothing to do with his hydrocephalus and everything to do with a user (ahem mom) failure in trying to remove his g-tube button. I couldn't get the syringe inside the spot to release the liquid out of the balloon. I tried several times and since Mike wasn't home to try, I decided to just take it to the experts. The ER had the button out and fixed very quickly.

We have noticed that Nicholas has been having several breakthroughs recently. He's getting much better about sitting up on his own, if we stand him upright he will plant his feet down and straighten his legs until he's standing with assistance, he has started trying out words (ball! mama! dada!), and we've started to feed him baby food along with his formula through the g-tube so he can get nutrients from real food.

I was in Las Vegas for work about a week ago and Mike called me. He had just left the office after Nicholas's appointment with his helmet specialist. When he initially was evaluated, the asymmetry of his head was at 26 mm. At the meeting last week, Nicholas had gotten his measurements done. His asymmetry measured 9 mm. 9. Less than 1 cm of asymmetry. And, his head had gotten smaller than it ever has been before. The helmet specialist told Mike that if this trend kept up, he thinks Nicholas will be discharged from his helmet in April. This is the child the PA in the neurosurgeon's office wanted to not even give a prescription for helmet therapy for! He thought it would be pointless.

Other things -
I went late in January to my Hydrocephalus Awareness WALK chair training. I came back ready and willing to hit the ground running. I'm so excited! I have two fantastic co-chairs who are just as excited as me, we've already started garnering sponsors, and I'll be announcing our location and date within the next couple of days! If you haven't liked our page, please do so ASAP! You can also check out our WALK website or Nicholas's personal fundraising page. We'll be fundraising for the Hydrocephalus Association in his name for the WALK. People can join his team and fundraise for that team as well, create a new team to fundraise in someone else's name (or just a fun team of your making!), or WALK virtually if they can't attend the local WALK. Lots more information to come about helping out in that direction!

As for the other people in our family, Emily started walking about a week and a half ago. She took a few tentative steps and was at that point when I left for Vegas. By the time I got home, she was fully walking. It happened very fast. I was very worried because Zach was an early walker (he was pretty much walking by 10 months), but again I've been taught by my kids that things happen on their own timeline and when they're ready, it's go time. Zach is still doing fantastic at taekwondo, he has a tournament in April and he's going to compete in sparring for the first time ever. His instructor swears he's ready, and I believe him. Zach absolutely loves his sparring class. I have to admit I was really nervous for him to start sparring, it seems so violent for such a little guy. But, it's points sparring, so the idea for the match is to get points, not knock out your competitor. Of course, it's possible that he'll get kicked or punched the wrong way and get hurt, but frankly he could get hurt playing soccer or baseball as well, so we just learn the safe and right way to do things (learning defense is a HUGE part of class) and try to minimize the risk.

Again, I'll try to be better about updating the blog. I know that I've done such a terrible job lately.

525,600 Minutes

In one week the twins will turn one. When I think back over this whirlwind year, I can't help but feel like we are so incredibly lucky. 

The first month of the twins lives was hectic and scary. Nicholas underwent two major surgeries and spent 21 days in the NICU. I've learned that's a heartbeat in the NICU. He was a short timer. But for our family that was an eternity. Zach befriended child life, figured out where the playroom in the children's hospital was, learned where to touch on the magic wall in the lobby to make music. He quickly learned how to pull out the blanket child life left for him and play with the toys in "his" bin. And what day there was good stuff in the parent lounge fridge. 

Emily slept in the arms of nurses, doctors, therapists, aunts, grandma and parents as we sat for hours next to Nicholas's bedside. 

Mike and I found the healthier cafe in the hospital, learned how to scrub in properly, quickly learned medical terminology, learned how to navigate a "normal" life as we carried around a feeding pump, feeding bags, extensions. We learned how to replace a button in our son's stomach so he could always eat. We watched therapists work to increase Nicholas's strength and learned what they were doing so we could do it at home. 

We enrolled Zach in taekwando so he would have something for himself and we have watched him blossom into a remarkable child. He is a fiercely protective older brother, a patient playmate, and has most recently become a victim of his sister's experiments with biting. He is independent and excelling in school even though he's one of the youngest in his class. 

Emily is growing into a stubborn and independent toddler. She is crawling everywhere and getting into everything. If there is something she shouldn't be putting in her mouth anywhere around her she is guaranteed to find it and put it in her mouth before anybody realizes. She is friendly and likes people. She spends a lot of her time with her brother at therapy and benefits from playing with the toys there. 

Nicholas has had the hardest year of any of us (and it isn't over yet as he has a minor surgery scheduled December 31st to remove a cyst from his nose) and still remains the happiest, sweetest child. He willingly smiles at everyone, he laughs at pretty much anything his big brother does, loves to pet our dog, and is getting around by rolling all over the place. He is currently anywhere between 3-5 months delayed but is making incredible strides every day. His therapists are amazed at his successes. 

It was probably one of the hardest years of our lives for Mike and I. Between working opposite shifts, planning around hospital stays, fighting insurance, and buying a home, we've spent a significant portion of the year at stress level maximum. But we are so very lucky. We get these amazing examples of tiny people to love and raise. It's not an easy job, and with the independent streak running through all three of them, it will probably get harder but it's a pretty fantastic life. 

And I can't believe we will have TODDLERS in a week.